Robin Williams' Widow Opens Up About Actor's Final Days

Robin Williams’ widow Susan has opened up about her husband’s final days in a new article published by The Times. In the piece Susan described how Williams had struggled to cope with ‘losing his mind’ and his Parkinson’s diagnosis before his suicide in August 2014.

Susan said that she had met the actor in an Apple store by chance and the two had instantly bonded over their experiences with rehab and alcoholism. “I'd been in rehab since before "rehab" had become a household word. When I told him I hadn't had a drink for 23 years, he was impressed,” Susan shared.

Williams had been diagnosed with Parkinson’s disease and had been told that if treated properly he would get another ’10 good years’. But the actor had been suffering rom a range of symptoms from constipation, to heartburn to anxiety and insomnia, according to Susan.

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The actor’s problems were particularly bad at night, “If we were lucky, we would get two hours' sleep and then he would thrash and we would be up. He was always awake and ready to talk,” Susan said.

“Usually, he would be looping on a delusional fear or paranoia that he couldn't shake, and we would talk it through.” Eventually the anxiety Williams’ suffered and his inability to sleep began taking its toll on the actor in the months before his death.”

“He had become so mad at himself for the uncontrollable fears and paranoia that were ravaging him, like walking into a room and just freezing,“ Susan shared. "He was sick of being unable to talk or move for moments on end sometimes. In times of clarity, he would tell me how he couldn't bust out of the prison of his delusional thinking. His brain was attacking him.”

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Speaking about the day her husband died Susan said, “After the emergency services had left, I had a moment alone with him in the room. Without understanding, I completely understood. I began talking: ”Robin. I'm not mad at you. I don't blame you at all. Not one bit. You fought so hard and you were so brave. With all my heart, I love you."

After her husband’s death Susan found out that he had also been living with Lewy body disease, with an expert telling her it was 'as if he had cancer throughout every organ in his body'. "He was losing his mind. He knew it, although he didn't know why, and there was nothing he could do,” Susan added.