British singer/rapper Estelle fights back tears every time she performs new single Thank You - because it reminds her of her recent love split.
The American Boy hitmaker had been dating a mystery keyboard player but they went their separate ways just weeks before she heard the Akon-penned song.
As a result, every time she steps on stage to sing Thank You, Estelle is overcome with emotion.
She tells London's Evening Standard magazine, "(When I heard it) my heart started pounding. My chest hurt. And guess what? Two weeks later I broke up with this guy. And now I can't sing it without crying. It's my life. It's a mess.
"I've never cried on stage before. But every time I sing 'Thank You' the tears are ready to come. I'm not going to do that ugly face in public. OK, I am..."
Opening up about her doomed relationship, she adds, "When I first met him I asked him not to mess with me. I asked him to be 100 per cent with me. Please! Three years down the line he did the exact opposite. So Thank You is about growing up, turning into a woman and not being bitter. Not being angry at myself for choosing the wrong guy."