Mel has decided not to join the group for their upcoming reunion shows, no matter how lucrative the offer is.
Mel C has opened up about her battles with depression and eating disorders during her days in the Spice Girls. Speaking to Event magazine, the former Sporty Spice said that sometimes she couldn't even look at herself in the mirror during her heyday with the group, because of the constant scrutiny she was under.
Mel C battled depression and eating disorders during her days as Sporty Spice
“When the Spice Girls were at their biggest, I couldn’t even really look at myself in the mirror because I didn’t like what I saw,” Mel admitted. “I never said anything to anyone. I was trying to hide everything from myself.
“Depression, eating disorders, obsessive over-exercising. I went through all of it. Yet I didn’t even admit it to myself. When your life is that crazy, travelling everywhere, performing all over the place, constantly on the move, you don’t have to acknowledge what is going on in your life.”
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Mel said that things only began to get better once she admitted her problems to herself and entered therapy. The 43-year-old credits acupuncture with helping her recovery, as well as yoga and using running to clear her mind.
When it comes to the much anticipated Spice Girls reunion Mel says it just didn't feel right and that money did not factor into her decision. “It just didn’t feel right to go back,” she explained. “I loved what we did as the Spice Girls and part of me will be Sporty Spice until I die.
“We had one reunion [in 2007] and I didn’t want to do that. But I was talked round and it was the right thing to do, we had a great time and then we played at the closing ceremony for the Olympics in 2012. That to me was where [the Spice Girls] should have been laid to rest. Sometimes you just have to say no.”
The offer on the table was said to be a couple of million and although Mel has financial concerns, she couldn't go back just for the money. “It was a really hard decision. I’d like to say the money didn’t matter to me. I made a lot in the Spice Girls but I spent a hell of a lot and had a lot of fun spending it,” she said.
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“I’m a single mother now and I do have financial concerns, but at the end of the day I didn’t want to base my decision on being about the money. I didn’t make the decision lightly. I did go quite far down the route with the girls. I went to a lot of meetings. But when it came to it, I just didn’t feel it was right in my gut. When I finally said no I just felt absolute relief.”
Mel admitted that things were at bit awkward with the other girls at the moment, but she’s confident it’s something they can overcome. “We’ve all been through so much together, and we’re these five girls who did this incredible thing and that will unite us for ever,” she added.