Nicki Minaj Speaks Candidly Of Teenage Abortion: "I Thought I Was Going To Die"

Nicki Minaj's latest studio album 'The Pinkprint' has been receiving rave reviews since it was dropped on December 15th, and this may be because it gives fans unrestricted access into the rapper's personal life, including her split with her longtime love Samual Safaree and having an abortion as a teenager.

Minaj gets very personal with her new album 'The Pinkprint'

"One of my goals was to give people a glimpse into my personal life, because it's something I've kept very private," Minaj recently told Rolling Stone, referring to tracks such as 'All Things Go,' in which she raps about wishing her child could have grown up with her younger brother Micaiah.

"I thought I was going to die," she told the mag about her abortion. "I was a teenager. It was the hardest thing I'd ever gone through."

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Even though Minaj admitted this decision has "haunted me all my life," she realizes it was the right choice for her at the time. "It'd be contradictory if I said I wasn't pro-choice. I wasn't ready. I didn't have anything to offer a child," she added.

Instead of using her familiar formula of upbeat tracks and her over-the-top alter egos, the Grammy-winner decided to be inspired by the hardships of her personal life for the new album. "I had to learn to do something as simple as sleep alone," she explained. "I struggled with 'Do I express these feelings?' And I decided there's no reason for me to hide. I'm a vulnerable woman, and I'm proud of that."

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However, Minaj showing off her vulnerable side doesn't mean she has lost sight of promoting women to be sexy and proud of who they are. "With a video like 'Anaconda,' I'm a grown-ass f--king woman!" she said of her sexy music video. "I stand for girls wanting to be sexy and dance, but also having a strong sense of themselves. If you got a big ol' butt? Shake it! Who cares? That doesn't mean you shouldn't be graduating from college."